Control, control and control

I've a dreamt of big white wedding ever since i was small. But I'm from a conservative family and I'm the youngest in the family too, all of them have married, and they married life are exceptionally happy, whatever i do they will complain and discourage. In this family the only one who no control me is my father, he always support me the most since i was young until now, he lets me do whatever i wish, but we become strange when i was in high school and i seldom meet and talk to him also, i felt sad about it, yet we still care each other deep in heart even we no talk often. In this moment i miss my father so much. So marrying in my mid-twenties and settling down with 2 children was never going to happen to me. I'm 25 in this year, they still wanted to choose some guy for me which they think is good, they even wanted to involve to my relationship. I started to realize the most afflictive suffering in a relationship that's not because of the lover doesn't love you, that's not because of the lover leaves you alone, that's not because of the lover lies on you; the most afflictive in a relationship is without endorsement of the family. The last time I was actually in love was 6 years ago, we had a four months relationship that ended because of they were discourage me with the guy, the reason was I'm in college examination. 6 years after, they still do the same, controlling me. Why?

I started worry and pressure to get married if they keep on to control me. They will just think and talk what they see, but they would not understand what i actually wanted. I don like stay with them and listen to them, but not means I'm a naughty girl, i just want freedom, they are so annoying with any of my relationship, may be they just give some advisement, but this time i would not follow their ideas, I'm a human, it's all about the sensibility, feelings and a sense of humour, not you say break then i should follow. If the guy i love is rich enough i think they will have different thinking. I understand money is important for future, but the fate wanted you to meet a poor guy then what can u do? If you are really married a rich guy and one day he bankrupts will you stay with him still? Or you leave him and find another rich guy again? I'm a kind of people who is a little bit stubborn and have my own ideas when you try to push me more I'll put up a strong resistance if i think I'm right.

I have a lot of friends have already settled down, so I'm doing thing a decade late. I think i will not have a big white wedding in the future. If the day when I'm getting marry I'll just do a travelling marry planets move around and may be i will not inform them if they still want to control me again!